Let me begin to say, I’ve needed to put this into print for a while now, and I just don’t know what is going to come out as I start this. Lately, I have been to hospitals where people have lost loved ones many years before they should be gone, or listened to people say, “I’ll be leaving here Monday,” and you realize they’ve not been told the truth of their condition… or heard a radio broadcast of a lady who was legally dead and told of her experience in the presence of the Lord, or listened to people talk about the people the love and the miscommunications that are seemingly everywhere and under attack in the most unbelievable places… or heard a mom in Target belittling (loudly and in front of everyone) her 5 year old for simply tugging on her sleeve for a moment of her time… or watching so many looking for someone to tell them they are doing a good job and “I’m proud of you” (those things Fathers say)…There have been several conversations, events, dreams and feelings that are converging in me as I try to put this to paper, so if you hear any one, or any thing, know that it is not merely one, but MANY that have brought me to this place… a place that I must tell you, I LOVE YOU! You are good! And I am more of who I am meant to be because you are in my life!
That said…
Two days ago as I was running to get ready for Em to pick me up for the spur of the minute Lubbock adventure, Troy and I had a difference of thinking that was left hanging between us (now don’t you guys worry… we ride these waves often and that is good to know how to maneuver these in marriages J or for that matter any relationship of long terms ) … anyway, it was hanging and I was running. I stopped in the hallway as Troy hurried to the other end of the house to go to his tasks at hand… and I said… “wait… let’s get this back right before I leave”… to which he said..”you’ve got to get dressed they’ll be here in a minute!”…. and I said…. (after all these things I am thinking start to ring in my heart)…. “no, nothing is more important, or immediate than RIGHT NOW and that you and I are right before I leave… what if something happens and this is the last time we’ve talked?”… needless to say, we took the 5 minutes it took to come back to the same page of ourselves and our relationships. Now I am not naïve enough to think that this resolution can always be the case, but I have lived enough years to know that time is fleeting and opportunities are precious and could be missed.
We have some very valuable things in our lives… KG is always quick to tell me.. “Tahtee you can’t love ‘that’(a good cup of coffee/a great song/a beautiful sunrise, or any of those THINGS), you can only love something that is alive!” Wise words huh? They fit into what I want to share. The ones you and I love are non-negotiables in our lives. I mean precious ones this……. You will never know when the LAST conversation will be spoken between you and anyone! Let me repeat this for you and for me….
“WE NEVER KNOW WHEN THE LAST ANYTHING IS BETWEEN US AND ANYONE ELSE”……
the last word, the last hug, the last dance, the last kiss, the last recital, the last awards banquet, the last girlfriend/boyfriend, the last time they say a “w” for their “r”s, the last time you read “the Best Christmas Pagent Ever”, the last time you get to pray with them before they go to sleep and sing “I Love you to the Moon”, the last time you rock them goodnight, the last time they snuggle under your arm, the last time you plant that field, the last time you feel a baby in your arms, the last time you play catch with your son, or tag you’re it with your daughter, the last time your Dad shakes your hand and you know you’ve done well, the last time you cook Christmas dinner together and laugh in the family kitchen, the last great book you read, or favorite song you choose, the last great teacher you hear, the last time you tell that person,
That said…
Two days ago as I was running to get ready for Em to pick me up for the spur of the minute Lubbock adventure, Troy and I had a difference of thinking that was left hanging between us (now don’t you guys worry… we ride these waves often and that is good to know how to maneuver these in marriages J or for that matter any relationship of long terms ) … anyway, it was hanging and I was running. I stopped in the hallway as Troy hurried to the other end of the house to go to his tasks at hand… and I said… “wait… let’s get this back right before I leave”… to which he said..”you’ve got to get dressed they’ll be here in a minute!”…. and I said…. (after all these things I am thinking start to ring in my heart)…. “no, nothing is more important, or immediate than RIGHT NOW and that you and I are right before I leave… what if something happens and this is the last time we’ve talked?”… needless to say, we took the 5 minutes it took to come back to the same page of ourselves and our relationships. Now I am not naïve enough to think that this resolution can always be the case, but I have lived enough years to know that time is fleeting and opportunities are precious and could be missed.
We have some very valuable things in our lives… KG is always quick to tell me.. “Tahtee you can’t love ‘that’(a good cup of coffee/a great song/a beautiful sunrise, or any of those THINGS), you can only love something that is alive!” Wise words huh? They fit into what I want to share. The ones you and I love are non-negotiables in our lives. I mean precious ones this……. You will never know when the LAST conversation will be spoken between you and anyone! Let me repeat this for you and for me….
“WE NEVER KNOW WHEN THE LAST ANYTHING IS BETWEEN US AND ANYONE ELSE”……
the last word, the last hug, the last dance, the last kiss, the last recital, the last awards banquet, the last girlfriend/boyfriend, the last time they say a “w” for their “r”s, the last time you read “the Best Christmas Pagent Ever”, the last time you get to pray with them before they go to sleep and sing “I Love you to the Moon”, the last time you rock them goodnight, the last time they snuggle under your arm, the last time you plant that field, the last time you feel a baby in your arms, the last time you play catch with your son, or tag you’re it with your daughter, the last time your Dad shakes your hand and you know you’ve done well, the last time you cook Christmas dinner together and laugh in the family kitchen, the last great book you read, or favorite song you choose, the last great teacher you hear, the last time you tell that person,
“I love you”……..
THE LAST TIME….. we NEVER KNOW!!!!
I guess what I am saying to you and to me is that “time” and “ourselves” are invaluable gifts that only we have to give. I hope I always leave the people I love knowing that they are cherished and that who they are in my eyes is good. I never want to take for granted any moment I am allowed in any person that is willing to share time/space/words and hearts with me. I want to always remember that nothing is guaranteed but right now…. And make the most of each “right now” I have with “my people” YOU!
I guess what I am saying to you and to me is that “time” and “ourselves” are invaluable gifts that only we have to give. I hope I always leave the people I love knowing that they are cherished and that who they are in my eyes is good. I never want to take for granted any moment I am allowed in any person that is willing to share time/space/words and hearts with me. I want to always remember that nothing is guaranteed but right now…. And make the most of each “right now” I have with “my people” YOU!
